End Jan:
I left my job to be a full time mum. At that time, I thought I was still going to have Jo, my helper then. Well, things changed.
March:
Jo went back home and I became a full time SAHM with no help for the first time. First time doing housework, laundry, First time cooking... First time caring for Leia all on my own. I realized that Jo did so much for us back then. And we did so little. It was tough and exhausting for me to do everything for the first time. And I was pregnant.
Well, mid March, we went to the airport to pick her and she never showed up. I felt so betrayed and lied to back then. I cried for 2 nights and kept having flash backs of her in my home. First I experienced anger then sadness. I missed her. I couldn't believe she left us without saying goodbye.
Life went on and we had a staycation at Sentosa to have fun and forget about what happened.
A week later, the most wonderful thing happened! We were baptized! Both Leia and I were sick when it happened but we were grateful and thankful that we made it.
And then, I was down with Mycoplasma pneumonia, worst experience ever. I had to be hospitalized in ICU and my pregnancy was threatened. At the same time, Leia was admitted to KKH because of very high fever. Poor G was shuttling betwen us both. Honestly, it was tough but we got through it with God and so much family support.
I guess March was the highlight of the year lol.
April:
After I got discharged, we were desperate for a helper and engaged a transfer maid. We thought things would get better and they did in some sense. I recovered with more time to rest as she helped with housework. But soon, living with her became a nightmare for me. We clashed as she was a very difficult person to work with... Defiant, dishonest, always showing attitude. I was afraid of living with her as she started showing odds antics and spoke to herself a lot.
July:
I gave birth to little Keira! So much joy to hold a baby again. And I was blessed with a very smooth and fast delivery. My parents hired a confinement nanny for me and she was Godsend.
It's not easy to adjust to juggle a newborn when you have an elder toddler. Leia had a hard time as she was no longer the only one in the limelight! I had to spend more time with her and I was so thankful that Mary was around to take care of Keira and me! She made me happy unlike my then helper who was constantly doing otherwise.
With Mary's help, we decided to let go of the helper and send her back to the agency. She was really intolerable and we'd rather handle the housework and children without her. It was that bad.
Aug - Nov:
After Mary left, I had to become a full time SAHM handling 2 kids and the house. It.was.hard.work. But I learnt a lot and discovered that I could stretch my limits and do more than I thought. I was on survival mode most of the time. Cutting corners whenever I could. You see when you have a toddler and baby to care for, you really don't have a lot of time unlike what some people may think. I had NO me time at all! I had to shower and pee/poop with the door open. Keira was always in the bouncer right outside the kitchen, toilet or in the living room. I was struggling to get my children's basic needs met whilst maintaining basic home hygiene lol.
Sometimes I felt like a walking zombie doing the same routine everyday. I needed to have my daily teh si to function. But I was happy to be with my children. They needed me and I needed them. G was very supportive and hands on. I had my moments when I was always waiting for home to come home so that I could talk to an adult or get some help.
My mum really helped me a lot too! She would come twice or thrice a week to watch Keira, cook and sometimes even clean my place. I always had to nag at her -not- to sweep/mop my place and bend down!
Dec:
Things got better when G had a break from school! We brought L and K out a lot since it entertained them! Our new helper came on 17th dec and so far seems alright! Crossing our fingers...
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