The past two weeks was like a roller coaster ride to me.
My period was late and I was experiencing pregnancy symptoms. I was perpetually exhausted and hungry. My chest was sore and I was always having light cramps. I felt so uncomfortable and pent up that I was going out of mind.
And so I thought I was pregnant. Initially, I didn't think it could be so fast but as the days went by and my period delayed further, I started freaking out and thought maybe, it was true.
I took a pregnancy test the first time and it was negative. To be honest, I was relieved but also, to my surprise, a little disappointed. I guess I really thought I was pregnant and it made sense to be since my period wouldn't come.
I even visited the doctor's to confirm because something inside me told me not to trust the first test. I guess it was also the many forum posts that I read online, about how many women indicated that urine tests aren't all that reliable.
Anyways, I was made to do the second test and it was still negative. I was getting very frustrated and afraid then. Because I didn't comprehend how I could be so late and not pregnant. I even wondered if I was suffering from some underlying medical condition. It just didn't dawn on me that it could have been late due to stress or a change in an environment.
On 1st Feb, it finally came. I finally felt relieved that nothing was wrong with me. But again, I was a lil sad. This entire encounter made me realize that maybe, on a subconscious level, I was looking forward to being with child. It's really bizarre. Maybe this whole incident was a sign to me.
Maybe I'm ready?
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